Struggling with Meaninglessness

searching meaning in meaninglessness

Turning Point?

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Realizations. Realizations. Oh btw, I miss writing long, deep and abstract essays….

I’ve spent the last 2 nights having dinner with Khailee, a guy who always seem to re-energize me with his thoughts. Listening to him is like listening to a motivational guru plus the crazy metaphors and analogies. Through self realization, i found out that for the past 2 weeks I did not make any significant contribution on our current project.

After the dinner, I was dropped off at a LRT station and thought to myself “You know what, it will take me 45 minutes but I’m walking home instead. I need to digest my thoughts.”

Then I noticed it was drizzling. “It’s drizzling, should I take the bus to go home?? …… Hell no! Small amount of water droplets do not bother me. I still wanna walk home.”

After 5 minutes of walk, the rain got heavier. “I better take a taxi now or else I will be wet all over! … But wait, there’s no reason to stop walking. I must go on.”

Actually I love walking under the rain. It brings peace in my mind. As I walked, I reminded myself – If I do not get any realization by the time I reach home, I must well just be a useless cow.”

I watched my movements, step by step and suddenly I recalled back a priceless lesson given by Philllipe Stark on our mindset. The journey of life is all about the angle of our views.

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If you only look directly down your path, you are basically trapped in your own world living in an imaginary world not knowing what’s happening around you.

 

 

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  If you raise up the angle higher, you could see more but still, you wouldn’t know what will lie directly ahead of you.

 

 

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If you look directly straight ahead, you could see much better, but you are just looking at things which most typical people are looking at too.

 

 

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This is the perfect vision, as you could see what’s beyond, yet able to examine what you will be coming across at the same time.

 

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I f you always look up, then you are basically deluded as the most important thing in life is not at the sky (God) but what’s in front of you.

 

 

 

I only watched the video by Phillipe Stark once, but it already left me with a memorable impression.

The heavy rain did nothing to affect my pace. My mind was purely focused on myself and soon I discovered my weaknesses.

- Mental block created by negative thoughts which often paralyze my mind. This mental block actually has created a huge array of problems for myself.

The moment I stepped home, I immediately declare …

Tonight, I want to do the craziest thing  ever in my life. If I could do it, nothing worse can happen to me tomorrow.”

I did it.

I am the negative thought, the negative thought is me. 

Written by elan85

November 26, 2008 at 1:36 am

Posted in Personal, Philosophy

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